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Hubby was so excited when he found out that Phil Keaggy, his guitarist hero had concert at one church near Nashville. He'd missed several concerts that was held in 5 hours range from our place because we were busy with school work. This time seems to be a perfect time since it is summer (although I have to miss one class), and it is only 3 hours away. Last time we watched Philly's concert was in Alabama 6 years ago, when I visited him before we got married. At that time, I was surprised that my cool boyfriend who never had idol nor cared about any famous people went wild on the show.

Not as happy as he is, I am happy too with our trip, although it's hard to imagine this day being a historic day in our family history since our grandma get buried this morning. It is hard for not being able to be there sharing love with my family. Part of my heart feel like I am betraying for not coming home and helping a lot of things need to be done related to grandma. Thus, this having fun that hubby has planned as part of our 5th anniversary series seems to be ironic. On the other hand, there's nothing I can do except giving them moral support by calling them and praying for them. How I wish I could go home.

If there is thing that can make me feel helpful for this moment is I found grandma's picture that was used for the funeral. She's been sick for 15 years and there's no occasion needed to get her picture taken. I knew she had great picture when she was young that was hung on her house's wall. It was before she was sick, and since then the house was sold then her stuffs got moved around no one sure where the picture was. I was glad that hubby inventories pictures very very well. When dad mentioned that he was looking for grand's pictures, I didn't have much trouble to find one. I wish there were pictures with her big smile like what she gave to my nieces, but none was on the right angel. I thought what I found weren't good enough because they were cropped images from ground pictures we took when we had gathering. Apparently they were best picture of her we all could find.

I pray for peace and comfort for family and relatives. Soon everyone will go back to their city. Soon they have to face quietness, and quietness is sometimes saddening.